The backstory... cliffnotes version, of course...

I've had other blogs.  I enjoy blogging.  It seems it's the only time I can be...well... "me".  However, modern technology takes away from how much you can discuss.  Everyone finds you... even if there isn't anything to "hide"...even if you just want a spot to bitch in...  people still find you.

And I'm now ok with that.  If you think I'm that exciting, then great....cause, well... I'm not.  ;)   Although I like to *think* I am....hehehe.

So, Here's the background.

I'm a 30 year old female, who has had some shit come her way.  I've lived through infidelity, and survived... most recently I've lived through abuse...and survived.  Bottom line... I survived.  "That which doesn't kill you either makes you stronger.....or makes you wish you were dead."  While I've had my moments of wondering how I would survive the pain I was in, I've also come to realize that I am strong, and I can survive anything I feel the urge to fight.  Period. 

Throughout all of the battles, for the past 5 yrs, I've had the same shoulder to bitch to...and....cry on, even though it was on a 12 hr time difference.  We could go months without communication, and then pick up as if not a DAY went by.  Think about it...it's hard enough to keep up with friends in your own town, much less those across the world.  He has been my rock through so many hard times...hard times, that, I just can't bring myself to discussing.  And he knows what I mean when I say this.

I was so thrilled when my *best friend*/big brother was coming to the states to visit.  The first visit was friends only....  AND when he went to leave, a part of me went with him.  I couldn't figure out what it was...exactly..... On his second visit, we both realized that what we feared, was no longer a fear.  And what we were afraid of, was no longer a fear.  Everything seemed to fit, and I found my soul mate.  I hate to say it was just that simple.... but it was...just that simple.

What's the best part of falling for your best friend?  They know everything about you.....

What's the WORST part of falling for your best friend?  They know everything about you....

So, yes.  I have fallen for my bestfriend.  And yes, he lives in a time zone 12 hrs ahead of me.  As they say, don't worry about the future...it's already tomorrow in Australia.  :)

So, since I've had blogs before, and blogs I could edit/add on to.. I just felt this stage of my life needed a new blog.

So....welcome to April down under...... welcome to the journey......