Tragedy.

It's simply heartbreaking. An elementary school being attacked by an armed gunman. Victims being elementary aged, as well as the adults who worked at the school. For no reason. And if there was a reason, we will never know. But really, would there ever be a "reason" that would justify this cruel, horrific act?

The media coverage here has been basic. It hasn't been plastered all over the tv and newspapers. It has been mentioned, but nothing like I can only imagine it has been in the States. I honestly see most of my information from Facebook through news sighs More and more stories are coming out and being made public. The teacher who hid her students in the closet and was killed... but saved their precious lives. The little girl who played dead and because of that she is the only survivor of her ENTIRE class. I read a news article about her today that brought me to tears on my lunch break from the New York times (or some reputable source) that she came out, covered in blood, reassured her mom that she "played dead. But all my friends are dead". It brings me to tears even typing this now.

I don't have children yet, so I don't know just HOW intense the love a mother has for her child first hand. I do have nieces and nephews that I love so very dearly and the thought of them being hurt crushes me, much less something tragic occurring to them. I can't imagine how the parents of all these kids feel.

I'm not forgetting the adults that were killed. I'm not saying that is ok. It's just so hard for me to wrap my head around someone doing something like this to children. And so close to Christmas. I can't imagine being a parent, aunt, grandparent, or any other family member or friend. In the next few weeks, thinking of all the small caskets that will be displayed on the news as these young souls are laid to rest. It's just too much to imagine. It does make you wonder what the world is coming to. People talk about the end of times every time something tragic happens. And it does seem to be getting worse and worse. Just when you think you've heard it all, something breaks in with a news update and catches our attention, and rocks our world, shakes our faith. It just makes me sick to my stomach. I find myself avoiding reading articles regarding it because it causes me to tear up. It makes me angry and sad and scared all at the same time.

My heart and prayers are with the families that have been affected, not just now, but in the future. As they approach holidays without their little ones. As they never know what might have been..what their little girls and boys would have grown up to do. Taken too early and well beyond their time. It's just tragic.

RIP little angels.

Helllloooooooo

Not reeeaaallllly much to update from the southern hemisphere.  This blog post is more of a bitching post than anything else... lol.  Well, not really, but kinda.

 

Work is chaos.  Well, whatever level 15 levels PAST chaos is, is actually more like it.  Just when I think I am getting ahead and I THINK I see the light.. I realise that it's just me going crazy and seeing things.  It just really feels sometimes like there aren't enough hours in a day, or minutes in an hour... or even seconds in a minute!  I KNOW.. well, I HOPE that it's temporary.  I still have so much to learn and sort out.  At first I was optimistic that the first month would be chaos.  Now, I'm realistic and know the next six months or so will just attempt to kill me.  I am hoping that it will be worth it in the end.  I have learned in my 20 some odd years of life.  Ok, 30 some odd.....whatever... that NOTHING worth having comes free... or even easy for that matter.  Part of me is tempted to throw in the towel and say, nope.. can't do this.  The other part of me is far too determined and stubborn to throw in the towel this early.  I know these thoughts are because of a bad..... ok... shitty day.  We recently had a doctor work in our office.  He and I had a good time working together because we shared a similar sense of humor.  If he wasn't giving me a hard time, I knew something was wrong.  In addition to being a doctor, he also does professional motivational speaking.  He once told me some advice.  (I won't quote him, because I don't remember word for word..so here goes).  He said never make a decision regarding your job career after one day.  Go home, sleep on it.  If after a MINIMUM of three days and three sleeps you are miserable, then it's time to look at your options.  Not bad advice really.  I'll have a go tomorrow and see how I feel, and I'm hoping that it is better.  I really don't like the thought of giving up on this position.  Right now, to me, it's truly not an option!

 

I can't believe that Christmas is right around the corner!  It is reallllly hard to get into the Christmas spirit when it's upper 80 degrees!!!  I did manage to get the Christmas tree up (before December 1st, even!) when we had a big cold front come through.  Otherwise, it doesn't feel like it's Christmas.  It's hard to believe it's already time for the holidays. I have no clue what to get Wayne... and no clue what I want.... so when he asks, the going answer is "I don't know".... (which is ok, because it's the answer I get in return!! HA!)    With Christmas close, that means NYE is right around the corner as well!  It's so hard to believe it's time to start writing 2013.  What the hell?  When did this happen exactly!?!?!

 

Tomorrow is December 12.  Here in Australia, the date is written date/month/year.  Which is one of the many things I have had to learn and adjust to.  HOWEVER, tomorrow, no matter how you right it, it's 12/12/12.  I'm certain that tomorrow will be an awesome day.  Being positive is half the battle right????  

 

TTFN.

Friiiiiday.

First off.... after my last post I had quite a few emails and fb messages from people asking "are you engaged?".  So perhaps I should clarify that up.  (and I had no clue I actually have more than three readers.  ha.)  We are not engaged.  We are headed that way though and once I can release all the details, I will.  Basically, once everything becomes finalised and official I will happily share the details.  For the sake of our family, we aren't releasing information on the wedding until the official proposal comes and we have had the chance to tell the family personally.  We don't want people to learn of the details second hand via blogger/facebook.

 

I have had quite a busy week, and I am definitely ready for the weekend.  Well, I'm actually not doing much this weekend... I'm just more ready to have a 2 day break from the chaos from work!  As you can probably tell, since getting the promotion, I go into very little details about work.  Being the Practice Manager / Nurse coordinator, it will continue that I don't discuss work into details on my blog.  I don't think it's a professional thing to do as a manager.  But I'll just say I am still totally loving it..... even on the weeks like this one.  I still don't think it's actually "hit" me fully yet.  Today someone asked me to do something and I was thinking "umm... come again?"  And then I realised.. oh yeah, that is my job now.. well, one of the many tasks that go along with my job.  I'm starting to get a routine down and have continued to get good... and even GREAT.. feedback from the Directors/Owners.  It's really an awesome feeling to make things happen and have the physicians and staff happy.  The whole feel of the office has changed, and I am happy knowing that I have a lot to do with that.  Yesterday my business cards came in .  That was a really cool feeling... but on one level it really didn't even feel... real?

 

Wayne is home from being in Sydney for the week.  He's home for the weekend, then away Monday-Wednesday.. and THAT is the last trip.. of.. the... YEAR!!  Yipppp to the eeeeeee.  I will admit that week flew by, and the house is cleaner than it's been in MONTHS.  This also means that tomorrow I might get to have a little bit of a sleep in as there isn't a ton of stuff on my to do list.  And, since I'm up watching the nightly mini Will and Grace marathon, it's looking like another 1am bedtime.  Geeze.... what the hell is up with this.  I use to be the girl in bed by 10.  Now I keep wanting to stay up late... do one more thing... organise one more thing... clean something else.. watch ONE more episode......  Morning April and Evening April are gonna have big problems soon at this rate!

Well, that is it on this side of the world for now... until next time!