Up LATE.........

And not because of snoring (although that will sooooooon be a reason.).

Not because of insomnia.

But because I had online things to do for the job I go in the morning for induction to. 

HOWEVER.... the website...

Keeps...

CRASHING.

For those of you who know me... you know patience is far from one of my "strong" points.  However, I impressed myself tonight.  Didn't stress...(even after almost 2 hours of videos... and after intense research, there was no way to skip!)..... ended up emailing the person I meet with tomorrow the "error" information.

Granted...

Yes.  I have had some time to do this.  Well, as organized as I may appear, I am such a horrible procrastinator!!

Anyways!  The weekend was great.  Our friend, Michelle had a bday on Wednesday, so Sat night we went out to dinner... to where?? Tony Roma's! (for my American friends.. yes... THE tony romas).  Food.  Was.  Awesome.  I am so embarrassed to say at one point I was having a food-gasm (my word for food + orgasm?) and I suddenly realized I had totally zoned out of the conversation and was truly enjoying the food THAT much.  So much that I had lost track of the conversation.  Wow.  In my defense, it was my first REAL taste of America in over four months.  It was a little pricier than American prices, but not much.  And guess what I drank???? ICED (fucking) TEA!  My mouth still waters taking about the entire experience.

Tonight was a BBQ in North Freo with some friends (old AND new) and I had a great time.  Sitting around the table, eating, drinking, laughing.  Made me miss friends a little bit though.  It's crazy the things that set off your homesick button (luckily it's not breakdown homesick mode!! Just missing very important people!!!).  But, it happens, and I know that will be the case for a while, if not forever. 

Anyways, there are times sitting with new friends and laughing, that I can't help but think of certain friends and certain events..... nights of laughter, nights of tears, etc, etc.  Esp the friends I developed over the past few years.  In my 20 some odd (ok fine!! 31) years on this Earth, I have developed some amazing friendships.  However, with age comes wisdom (or is it wrinkles?)  and I value my friends so much as I've aged...much more than I ever have in my life.........  Especially those that I have developed that have been with me over the past few years.  As they say, if you wanna know your real friends, enter a storm.  Look to your left, then look to your right.  Those by your side, well those are your TRUE friends.  Cherish them.  And I do.  I just miss them while I cherish them sometimes.

In other news... well not much to report.  The stomach bug last week really knocked me out (with the exception of my picture-clever blog entry? lol!)  Still working on some personal wounds that I wish I wasn't having to deal with and heal.  Trust is something that is earned, not given... and I'm not sure that will ever be fully healed.  I fear of coming off as a bitch at times, because deep down (despite the appearance on the blog) I am such a softy.   Even if I deserve to be a bitch, I feel bad about it later.  Maybe this is part of my problem.  I still wonder though.  Every time a text comes.  Every time he is on the Internet.  Every day he goes to work.  What about the things I don't see?  How do I make that stop?  Add the fact that he is away with work 1/2 of the time.....  I re read a certain message and I can't help but want to puke, and then wonder why.   I guess that's the biggest thing on my mind at the time.  And the reason I just don't sleep well these days.

Speaking of sleep.. I need to hit the sack.  Been writing this waiting for the page for induction to "load" and 30 minutes later it is still not loading!    It's now nearly 2am and I planned on being in bed ages ago. Thanks workpro.com.au for failing so sleep is a fail for me as well.  Oh well, until those tonsils come out it's not like I get much sleep anyways..........