On Monday night at work, I managed to hurt my back/hip. Long story, but by Tues night I was in so much pain. I couldn't get comfortable. All I could do is lay there and cry. No position made it OK, and living on the 3rd floor of an apartment building was pure misery. And I was all alone, with nobody nearby to help me. That evening I ended up forcing myself down the 3 miserable flights of stairs, into my car and drove myself to the hospital. End result? Pinched nerve with a possible slipped disc. Didn't do any xrays because an xray will only show the bones and after examining me the doctor felt it wasn't bone related, just nerve/disc. So if I continue to have problems then next week I am to go back to a doctor and possibly have an MRI. After that? Who knows. It is starting to feel a LITTLE better thanks to some medication. I was suppose to Fly to Kentucky on Friday (tomorrow) but when I was out of work and down in my back, I called Delta and for a little bit of money they were able to put me on a flight yesterday morning. So, I'm home in my own nice bed (unlike the p.o.s. bed in the apartment) with help from my family. I haven't left the house, hell, I've hardly left the couch or bed. It is slightly improving though. I'm hoping for things to be different tomorrow. And I'm really nervous and scared about the "what ifs" Sometimes being a nurse is bad. Knowledge is power, sure. But sometimes knowing what you may be facing is worse than being oblivious to what may be ahead.
After the past nearly 2 weeks, it was good to be home. It's been nice to spend time with my family (when I wasn't sedated from the medicines, of course). They and I have had time to process everything that is going on in all aspects of my life and their life and future life. I even had the first serious conversation with my dad about relationships. Was nice to have a heart to heart with him.
Well, I can feel some medication kicking in, and it's 10:30 p.m. So I guess I will stop for now. Got a big weekend ahead with my niece's high school graduation on Sunday, and catching up with one of my Best Friends on Saturday evening. It's nice to be home without a huge agenda. Oh, and the pool is open and the water is nice and warm.
Gonna end with a quote... doesn't surprise you, does it?
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."
~Bob Marley
~Bob Marley
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