Gonna post lyrics, but also feel the need to vent. I'm so discouraged lately. Things aren't where I thought they should or would be with me and Wayne, and I'm ok with that....sort of.... ok, not really. But this whole "limbo" thing, I'm just not really handling. I'm a black and white person. So not knowing what the future holds, really doesn't sit well with me. And maybe it's not a fact of not knowing the future, but not knowing what today holds. I'm a planner. Always have been. Always will be. And every day lately it's an "i don't know".... I am respecting his request for time, but I almost feel it's a delay of the inevitable, if that makes any sense. I'm tired of crying because I don't know. Things aren't over, but things aren't moving forward at the same time... hence, the limbo.... Every day I spend too much time finding myself in tears. I just wish I knew. My friends and family I'm sure are tired of hearing me cry and vent... thank god for true friends that have been here for me.
I don't claim to be perfect. I just claim to be me. Is that not enough?
So, I think I'll post with a couple of song/lyrics today... just because..well, it's my blog and I can post what I want. :)
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