30 day challenge take 2 / day 11

Day 11: A letter to one of your exes.

Ummm.  Yikes.  I guess when I found the second 30 day challenge that I'm working on, I didn't fully read all of the challenges.  Had I, there is a chance based on *this* entry alone I would have NOT done this challenge.  Ok, so it's not a chance, but a guarantee  ......Sigh.  Guess it's called a challenge for a reason? 

The challenge doesn't say that it has to be an ex as in relationship.  I could blog on ex friendship, hypocrisy, immaturity, etc.  (well, guess I kinda just did, huh?).  But, I don't wanna go there... yet.  But feel that at this rate, it's coming.  It'll take one bad day, a touch of estrogen, a side of homesick, and a certain creeper to set me over the edge.  I'm just sayin'....

Anyways.  Back to the challenge. 

Here we go....

"Dearest MF'er.

Thank you for wasting 6 yrs of my life.  They were just the prime years in my 20's, and I totally will get those back.  Please note sarcasm....

Thank you for allowing me to lose the ability to give trust as it properly should.  I am sure that anyone that I have taken out my lack of trust out on truly appreciates this as well.  Nicely done.

Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to lose confidence in myself and allowing me to always doubt everything that I do or say or feel.  It's an awesome feeling to feel that you aren't worthy of things that you *actually* are.

Thank you for allowing me the chance to experience the feeling of another woman (or two) emailing me...that you contacted on a dating website.  It's always a great way to build trust in a relationship, to join and even PAY for dating websites while you are in a relationship, engaged, and even married. 

Thank you for teaching me that violence isn't always a "last resort" and actually does happen, and not just on lifetime movies. And for the added bonus of being jumpy to noises, people...a million times worse than I ever have been.  The bump/scar on the back of my head is an added bonus too.  Too bad my head into the wall didn't do permanent damage that you have to look at and be reminded of everyday.  That would make me happy.

Oh... please insert the above "thank you's" with "F you's".  Cause, that's what I really mean.  Felt that the sarcasm of "thank you's" was a little bit more appropriate than dropping the F bomb multiple times in one blog??

I'd like to close with one last thank you.  Thank you for introducing me to a band that would lead me to finding the love of my life and best friend.  And no need to change the thank you on this one.  I really mean that one.

Sincerely,

Me.