Work has been giving me the shits. But today I had a "moment" or "realization" for lack of better words, thanks to some very kind and thankful patients who have been so kind and thankful today. As a nurse, you do things that save lives on a regular basis, you feel good about it, sometimes have that "RUSH" that all the nurses out there know what I'm talking about. But very rarely do people ever take the time to say thank you and appreciate what you've done. It almost makes it feel more real, if that makes any sense?
Anyways (shiny red ball moment!) I have decided that since I can't change the things at work bothering me, I have no choice... but to change my attitude. I plan on just going to work, focusing on my job, and letting the rest slide right off my back. (ask me tomorrow how long that will last though! lol) I have already informed Wayne that I will still, no doubt, bitch about work, but as women, that's what we do! lol And luckily, he's learned that us gals have to get it off our chest and then we are fine (or at least he gives an awesome front that he has learned that! lol).
At the end of the day, I have a job that I love despite Hitler.
Oh yeah, Hitler.
So a few weeks ago a patient was on the phone apparently having a go at my boss. I turn the corner and all I hear her say was "you are being rude.. and my name is NOT HITLER!" I busted up laughing.. APPARENTLY she didn't find it as funny.
As I was saying... despite Hitler, I love my job. I am not breaking my back or changing bed pans. I feel like I make an ACTUAL difference in lives. I have a NORMAL schedule. I sleep at night, and am off on holidays with family. I have a desk with Internet radio (LOVE it) and am making damn good money. No job is perfect, so time to focus on the good, baby!
In other news, I recently paid OFF a personal loan to my dad, and all my credit cards. What a freakin' load off!!!!!
So, since I'm in the blog mood.. I shall continue to blog.
And tell you some Random Facts About ME. (yeah, it's corny, but I felt like I would share the crazy shit about me that perhaps nobody knows... well, I'm sure my boyfriend knows em all).
- I can cross my eyes.. well, sorta... I cross the right eye, but the left eye stays straight. Apparently, it's crazy looking. (the boy on the other hand, makes great faces ATTEMPTING to... one of many fun memories from last weekend!)
- In the 9th grade, I had 3 friends. Count them, 3. I was extremely shy. (what the hell happened?? lol)
- Once upon a time I wanted to be the FIRST NFL female player. The only rule was nobody could tackle me (hey I was 6 and have never been a tom boy. I'm a delicate flower, bitches....lol)
- Once upon a time I wanted 4 kids.. all boys. The number has changed, but despite what I joke to my boyfriend, the boys hasn't changed. (but honestly, will be happy with whatever God grants us!)
- I am almost 32 with no kids, which bothers me. A LOT. But sometimes I think it will make me be a better mother, because I WANT kids so much now, and perhaps back "then" I wouldn't appreciate the wait? Silly, but a thought.
- I love the taste of fish and seafood.. the smell however, makes me wanna vomit.
- I miss my friends more than my family. Which is not a negative reflection on my family at all. Just show how damn important my friends are in my life. (although I do feel bad after typing that...)
- I feel bad more than I probably should (see previous random fact)
- Once upon a time, my dream was to buy a farm and rescue ALL dogs that were about to be put to sleep.
- My favorite tv shows: Friends, Sex and the City, One Tree Hill, Scrubs, ER, Nurse Jackie, How I met your mother... perhaps too many? I'm sure there are more I have left out...... I <3 TV. lol
- I don't have a creative bone in my body! I can "see" crafty things, but I can't make them happen.
- I don't remember the last time I finished a book. I will buy books, start them.. DIVE into them.. then they sit and collect dust.
- I am a huge procrastinator.
- I am my own worst enemy.
- I have never been happy with my body.
- At one stage I had 3 earrings in one ear and 4 in the other. For the past few years I've only had one in each. Last month suddenly the second hole works.. so now, I have 2 in each ear. Happy medium. :)
- I own more black clothes than I should, and less than I wish.
- I have EXTREME anxiety. Perhaps medication worthy. In the past, I treated with booze...but 45 days ago, I gave up booze (minus a situation) (yeah, yeah..judge away.) I am now learning to feel, think, etc without booze. I still have the anxiety...
- I deal with anxiety with humor.
- I fear death. Wait, not death. I fear dying alone (a note to my future kids.. be there and hold my damn hand!)
- This year I turn 32. I look in the mirror and see someone late 20's, early 30's...but I sometimes soooo feel mid 20's. So.. we are as young as we feel?????????????
- I love cheese
- When I am alone (shower, car, house work, etc...) it turns into a Karaoke event. Seriously. I use to do Karaoke a lot (but the whole not drinking thing killed that! lol) But the whole singing thing?? I love. I have a play list on my iPhone JUST for singing along! (bows head in shame!)
- I have never loved anyone in my life or felt as loved as I do now with my aussie.
- No matter how happy I am, I wish misery upon certain people.... I worry that makes me a bad person, but hope thats human nature.
- My first car was a 1996 geo Prizm. I've jumped more railroad tracks in that than Evil Kanevil (sp???)
- With no alarm or a reason to wake up, I'd sleep til noon daily. Period.
- I love quotes and lyrics. Far too much.
TTFN.
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