I am now about 10 weeks into my promotion. It has it's moments, both good and bad.
The good. Need a hair appointment? Don't need to ask permission to leave early. Need to come in late, that's fine. I have no bipolar boss breathing down the back of my throat... telling me how to do a job that SHE wasn't even able to do. All the positive changes I felt needed to be made, I have been able to make them! I get the gratification when my changes put us well into the GREEN and on the upside of things.
The bad? Interviews and hiring. I swear, some days I prefer Chinese water torture than enduring 3 straight hours of interviewing. And it seems to be WORSE when most candidates are not what we are looking for. Then the other extreme.... firing. Then all the others such as, saying "no", enforcing changes, saying "NO" and leaving out the "HELLLL" part. Some days, I really want to beat my head into the wall as I hear about the most recent "he said" "she said" "he took my toy" "no that's mine" "he started it" bullshit. Some days I have to stop and realise I am running a Medical Center, and NOT a daycare center. I have had to learn to make sure that my face does not express how I REALLY feel. And if you know me, you know that my facial expressions tell you allllll you need to know about what I am thinking or feeling (for the most part).
The biggest adjustment has been learning NOT to bring work home. There are times that it's just unavoidable, and there are stories that I sometimes just HAVE to share. But in general, I am really working on leaving work at work. And at the same time, leaving home at home. Planning a wedding and being somewhat stressed when a wedding venue we like is available but the reception venue we want isn't.... but on the ride to and from work, I reflect.. that is "my" time and that is wide open to whatever I want to think about. But once I walk into that door, I'm the boss. Once I walk into the doors at home, wait.. I'm STILL the boss! HAHAHA. No, seriously, when I walk home, I'm the fiance who likes to listen to country music when I'm in the shower, who loves to watch "Friends", "will and grace" and "sex and the city", who gets really crabby once a month, and I'm just your everyday woman who is emotional, sometimes irrational, loves dogs, and stresses over most things. (I am sure most women readers just read this and related!! lol). I try to not let one cross into the other. And that's really been helping me cope and not feel stressed out. And that's another reason that you won't find much about work on my blog anymore. Part of it is because of professional reasons. The main part though is it's just not THAT important at the end of the day. Having a job and income, yes. But enough to affect my personal life? Um. No.
So, wedding planning has been full on! Not being from here, it's been really hard to do planning, so over the past several months we had been doing some wedding reception and wedding venue browsing (yes, that was the big secret). We had found a place I loved and we stopped looking. However, we went to it last weekend and suddenly, I didn't like it anymore!! I mean, it was ok, but it was certainly not a place I could envision getting married at! So this past weekend and the weekend prior we went to some venues. I finally made a note in my phone of all the venues, and we rated the venues on a scale of 1-10 (JUST the venue.. not taking any other details into account). At the end of the viewings, we both rated the SAME place (The Sunken Gardens on UWA campus) the highest. That lead to contacting UWA and finding out availability today, and checking that AGAINST the availability for the reception venue, our photographer (will get to that in a second!), and our celebrant (the name of the person who marries you). So, now we have it somewhat narrowed down and just need to discuss it and go from there. I would like to get it all booked before Wayne goes to America. If we are happy with the venues, the dates all align, then why not just book it? Otherwise, we run the risk of our choice venues being booked up then we either delay the wedding (which with my age I'm not happy to do) or then have to settle for less than our top choice. Grrrrrr... It's a tad stressful!
Ok, so photographer. Photographers are EXPENSIVE here. Heck, everything is! So, we have found 2 reasonable (and below the norm cost!) photographers. One is a female. She is cheaper of the two. She does work on her own, does "all day" (so it's not timed) photos, her pictures I've seen are great and she has good reviews. The other is male. He is more expensive. He is timed. EXACTLY 8 hrs, or buy the longer package for twice as much as the female, or extend an hour at a time at quite a hefty fee!. He however, has an assistance, and his photos have that little extra "WOW" factor. Is it enough to really notice?????? I don't know. If they were the exact same money (and time) I would go with the male. No questions. So, I'm really conflicted over it. Part of me thinks that we have probably 9-9.5 months before the wedding, so plenty of time to save up the extra $800+. The other part of me says the female does a nice enough job and will be fine. HELPPPPP. Suggestions please??
Anyways, Wayne leaves on Thursday for America for 2.5 weeks. One week is just a work conference, the other time he is going to do a little catching up with friends and my folks in Florida...well at this stage that is the plan. And I would imagine my folks wouldnt' be overly happy if he came to America without seeing them. I was initially bummed I couldn't go. As it has gotten closer, I hate to say it, but I'm kinda glad I couldn't go. I am full on with work, and realllllly couldn't take the time off. My director's would have easily let me go (if it had been a free trip, they are from another country so know the expense of traveling home!) but I have a to do list as long as the equator, I have a huge amount of goals for the first quarter of the year, a new nurse who started last week, 2 new employees starting this week or next, a new doctor who recently just started full time last week, AND a new doctor starting in about 4-8 weeks. Add the wedding (planning, costs, etc) and the fact that the trip would be far from relaxing, but it would be more of a go go go for me to try to sneak in time to see everyone..... there just really isn't time for it right now for me. So I'm actually glad that it wasn't an option. I think if it were an option, and I had to chose, I would probably go because otherwise I would feel bad about skipping a chance to see my parents and friends. Gee.. that sounds so bad doesn't it! This is Wayne's first trip in ages...since well before Christmas. It has felt weird having him home for sooo long. Usually two weeks straight home is a long time at home. I am glad he is going to be able to go and enjoy, and I am also looking forward to some down time and me time. Wow, I suddenly feel like the worst daughter, friend, and fiance! Geeze.
Ok, now that I have wrapped up the award for terrible person, I am going to sit back and enjoy some cheesy chick flicks, cheese pizza for dinner, and relax on this Monday night. Only four days to go until the weekend!!
Until next time!
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