Blah.

Seriously needing some motivation.  It's freezing, and snowed every day so far in December.  I'm including today, the 5th, as I've already ventured out to the store only to find... yup.  Snow.  I'm not anti snow, don't get me wrong.  I just wasn't quite ready.  I mean, seriously, I just came back from paradise and entered freezing temperatures and being able to see my breath as soon as I stepped off the plane.  If that's not a shock to the system, I don't know what is! And we aren't getting significant snow, maybe 4''?  But it's just enough to make roads slick, and de-icing your vehicle mandatory before leaving the apartment.  At least when I'm at work, I get to park in a covered parking garage.  Gotta find the positive right?

Anyways, with the weather I'm just blah.  Without the dogs I find myself sleeping later and later on my nights off.  Granted, I'm also going to bed later and later on my nights off, as early morning or late night is the best opportunity for Wayne and I to talk.. either online or on the phone.  Love our chats, and the fact that modern technology is where it is and that we aren't waiting for snail mail or pigeons, messages in bottles.... eh, you get the picture.

Also have some family stuff going on.  Won't go into that here, those of you who know me well enough, know what is going on.  Just a real difficult time right now and I hate that it's so close to the holidays.  Well, I hate it in general.  I hate being let down by people who I least expect it from... one person in specific. 

It's now down to 18 days until I get to see Wayne again.  I know it'll all be worth it once all the many details are sorted, I have no doubts about that... it's just hard somedays.  And somedays, it's even harder than others.  Somedays you don't think it could possibly be harder, only to find out in a few days it does get worse.  But, then it gets better, and you go from hating the distance, to being so blessed to have someone so special that makes the distance worth it all.  Does that make sense? 

In the meantime, I'm working on a super secret mission on planning some things for while he's here.  Over the 3 or 3 1/2 weeks he's here, I do have to work 2 weeks of those, but that's only 6 nights total.  So, if you have any suggestions of things to do (other than the obvious....hehe) drop me an email!  When you grow up with all the things around you, you take forgranted that some things even exist.  Working on NYE plans, and think that's gonna fall perfectly into place.

Well, I am gonna hop off here, throw some clean sheets onto the bed (my obsession) and try to get motivated to do a few small things around the house.... if i can get motivated to 1. get off the couch.. 2. get out from under my very warm fuzzy blanket, and 3. quit playing on a website that keeps advertising on my home page...lol.  

Until next time.... cheers.....